Straßenkatze [She/They]

The real question is why use Google for 99% of searches? There are very few searches where Google is “necessary,”(debatable still).

“Hey I’m Grump, I’m not-so Grump, AND WE’RE THE GAME GRUMPS!”

Suicide always leaves those of us behind with many questions, more than one takes an ever greater toll on the mind of the one left behind, so I want to first say first and foremost, genuinely: Your emotions are valid, and I know firsthand how much it can make one become overwhelmed.

Yes, suicide hotlines are still a thing. For the LGBTQ+ Youth, there is The Trevor Project, for others 988 services general crisis-level calls. You would need to contact particular crisis centers themselves likely for more details, but I would suspect one would need a degree in Psychology or other therapeutic-esque degrees to work in them.

Other than that, the unfortunate and harsh truth is that if one truly intends to go through with it, you as one person are unlikely to know until it is too late. Some choose the mercy of an out on their own accord, and those serious oft not talk about it unprompted. We have to try to be the best we can for those we cherish, and if something happens in spite of that, we know that we gave them a light, however dim it might have been, before the time. It is not a full solace, but it contextualizes an otherwise very overwhelming feeling.

This is the type of image I would love to just have as a poster(many unamused persons would see it, and make me giggle with their consternation).

Much energy, very cute.

Also, soup~! Yay soup~

If only GOG was not so problematic with its restorations. A game designed for X era not running on an X era machine because GOG decided to fiddle around with it and break its compatibility on the system. My Windows 7 machine was not very happy with GOG. More power to them for keeping old games alive and DRM-free, but that was a nightmare dealing with.

Firstly, congratulations on nearly reaching the starting line to the rest of your life. 18 always feels different to different people, but mostly everyone finds that life changes quite rapidly after that level-up.

People here have mentioned getting a job, but I want to offer a bit more actionable advice:

1. Contact a temp agency. You might find a direct employment somewhere if you scour the landscape enough, but temp agencies almost always have a contract in need of someone who is willing to show up. A lot of industries use temp agencies to fill in gaps but also to headhunt, and temp-to-hire is a real possibility that could translate into a career. Do not let anyone try to dissuade you from using a temp agency. Especially for those lacking work experience, they are likely your best bet(that was how I began before I was even out of Highschool a decade ago).
2. The fact you are actually working on a website(HTML from scratch or at least some custom HTML usage I would hope?) is really cool! But let it be a side-hobby until you can get enough of that experience under your belt. If you get well-versed enough in web design, you could always freelance for experience and possibly translate that into an opportunity down the line.
3. Starting a business is a lot a lot of work. It is not something a greenhorn(those new to things) should really be vying for, though the ambition is to be admired, I did not have that kind of thinking when I was your age. More power to you there, but do not get lost in the sauce. Like I mentioned in point 2, perhaps you can translate your apparent passion of web design into something eventually, but first you need capital and stability.

I am not going to offer financial advice since, well, I cannot do that. But the above is general job advice from a girlie on the boulevard, you can take it or leave it. I will opine one thing though: Banks usually have a way to automatically transfer money to a savings account and you can set percentages when setting up direct deposits so you can put money in one per paycheck, if you feel so inclined to do so. That is up to you and your situation though, just mentioning it if you were unaware of that.

Very interesting question honestly. The folks at my work probaby wonder it considering I am always giving enthusiasm even at the start of the work week.

I would not so much call it a “cheat code,” but what helps is to place yourself in this moment in time. What happened did, what happens now is, what happens later is not yet reality. To be fully present in the moment you are, and to embrace that and be in tune with your inner realm, that is how you can live life fully. At least, that is how I see it.

Many worry about the past which is just pointless, many worry about the future which will come regardless of worry and can only be changed by being present in the now. If we lose ourselves in times that are not, we lose the time that is, which is a travesty. “Right now is still special because you are here for it.”

There are some really shiny diamonds for a certainty. My Prince I met through that platform, so I do not deny its ability to bring folks together. Unfortunately, like you encountered(but hopefully not the darkness I had to encounter) there is a lot of horribleness.

And I gotcha. Still just be mindful, as sudden start-stops even of OTC can be problematic, and you will know more about yourself and your situation. The person was not wholly wrong, as taking too much likely would weaken the body’s natural production of melatonin or cause a spike in its production to meet the hole left by the supplement’s departure. To elaborate a bit more–Melatonin supplements can help with bringing on tiredness in the body, as it is the chemical that helps you to be in a state of sleepiness. Spiking those levels though only does that–spikes tiredness. That can induce sleep sure, and could make it deep(possibly too deep) in doses unregulated by your Doctor, but it is not a sleeping supplement. It is the foil to Caffeine, which is a stimulant that helps shove melatonin and otherwise to the side to functionally trick you into a perceived wakefulness, while your body is actually still in the tired state just not as much conscious to you. None of this is medical advice, simply what I have read up on, since the two are extremely common chemicals people grab way too quickly to meet a believed need that it does not provide, which can be dangerous, especially the “I just need a coffee and I can keep driving,” types.

And ah. To be fair, BuSpar could absolutely be read and remembered as “BuuStbar.” Still pretty funny though, haha.

I tried to use vrchat

Genuinely, it was for the long-term best you left there. It is not a great place, and people often end up down some pretty dark places.

was told not to do that by someone on lemmy

Dearie…never ever ever start/stop anything medicinal just because someone said so, especially not on the internet. I do not doubt that the person meant well suggesting not to(Melatonin is just about as misunderstood by folks as Caffeine, it does not do what people think it does), but only you know yourself, and a medical professional is who needs consultation if the situation calls for it. If you do go and see a Medical Professional: You can ask them what they think about Trazodone or Mirtazapine, as the latter helped me with my insomnia(not the former though).

boost bar

Is that…not just the multivitamin food/drink brand? Nothing wrong with them broadly speaking, but that has no relevance to what you are talking about.

If you are getting to the point where it is difficult to even eat/drink, you really really should seek help from a Medical Professional. I know from experience that suggestion gets rather trite to hear, but I also know from experience that it can get to a point where one really does need to seek help, and it honestly seems to me like you are at that point. At least go and see what a Psychiatrist may say.

There are other “natural,” things you could look into, but I cannot and will not offer medical advice. Ashwagandha is something many will name-drop. For me, it made me feel absolutely horrible, but others swear by it. Herbal teas can help with sleep and overall relaxation, like Jasmine, Lavender, or specialty blends designed for various reliefs. I found them pleasant, but I cannot say they did too terribly much personally.

Completely thought this was from one of those old flash-based “quiz” or rage games, as it vaguely could be seen in my mind.

Based on the comments, it appears I was wrong.

Unreasonably expensive

Ah, so most of everything nowadays. “Working for an hour costs as much as a sandwich,” comes to mind.

Also, at least you enjoyed it. I suppose sometimes ads are indeed accurate :p

It is a matter of expectations. A person who grew up in X situation believes that Y knowledge is fundamental, while one who grew up in Z situation may of had zero exposure to or need of being exposed to Y knowledge, instead learning T knowledge which they find to be fundamental.

There is a book I have actually, the Book of Basic Knowledge. I would say there is a baseline that makes sense for everyone to know for daily life(basic mental mathematics, how to construct sentences/formulate thoughts, a basic grasp of history to help understand why we are where and who we are, etc.), but some might believe there is “Basic Knowledge,” that is outside the scope of that book, because of the logic I posited above. Or some might think that the book goes beyond Basic Knowledge. And some might just outright disagree with what I think is fundamental to interface with the world(though having lived in it long enough, I think what I put is pretty universally needed).

“If you can stand, you can work.”

Sounds about right.

human and feline medical research

No other context needed, time to physically become catgirl.

Also, green.

Katze~! 🧡

do you have to mention that germaniac stuff every time?

I can refrain from my German towards you if you wish, it is meant with full genuineness though, that was the informal similar to the use of hallo. I do not know what is done on Reddit but I can likely safely assert my use is meant much differently.

And hopefully so! It is difficult to read signs, and sometimes even more difficult to read when someone actually does say something, since like you said, things can be meant very differently than intended. I will say though, it is much better to pop the question and get a response, and build from what is said, than to ponder what could be the case. The former progress can be made(and comes with its own challenges at times), the latter you are just spinning tires.

I remember when I used to drink Monsters before it donkey-kicked my health one day.

I also remember wondering similar(she did not, she was a pick-me, besides the point).

I cannot think or even smell a Monster without thinking about the alcoholic version of it though. Smells and tastes near identical to each other.

Schlaf Gut! (you probably already are asleep two hours later)