I feel it’s kinda like suicide in a way
But the difference is that you are still alive. I don’t do any kind of drugs, although there are plenty other ways to ruin my own life. Surviving the moment is sometimes more important.
It can get better indeed and for that I actually consider it a somewhat good strategy especially if suicide was also considered. If you are dead it certainly won’t get better.
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