The media is paid to ignore it. And people are too numb to react. Everyone is desensitized to everything that would have enraged them had it been announced all of a sudden. It’s like that poison conditioning. Taking little amounts of poison each time, with apparently no effect. But it’s destroying us on the inside.

I swear, the drama with these two!

Biological warfare

I hopped mainly among a few. Then it was Debian for a long time. Then hopped again for no particular reason. My Mint kernel panicked once a few weeks ago, so I might hop again.

I think that’s changing too about me.

Lately I’ve been getting marketing calls with recorded messages.

And it’s absurd to even wish I didn’t need to have a phone.

I wanna live there fully and permanently. But I have to keep reaching out for work.

“Ironically,” it’s a picture I used as a profile pic on my real life accounts.

I shouldn’t even be around.

I don’t know which is worse: that there is no sense of self anymore, or that I have to put on masks to pretend there is.

It is, but still.

I think I’m finally moving to the mysterious side. I am not mysterious though. I just am.

I’m not. And I’m not sure if I should be. And I can’t go there anyway. I sometimes wish I could though.

Aw, I want dark magic.

No, actually meant precision. Like, no collateral damage. Yes, I saw that bit today on YT. With the jogger lady doing her jogging. Never had I wanted to be part of a protest so bad.

Is this precision protesting/riot?

I can’t relate to either. It is not very good. Not all on me though, I hope.

For a people who yell “family values,” they sure are into other people’s genitals.

One of my “friends” explicitly told me that they hated talking to me, and yet they kept doing it until I mangled the relationship. Or maybe it magled itself or was always.

I mean, you can always recycle and repurpose. Nothing has to go to waste.

That’s so much me that I’ve been questioning some things.